Countdown

As I said earlier, J and I will be meeting in person for the first time this weekend. It will be really interesting... I'm partly afraid we'll hate each other, partly afraid we'll like each other too much. I'm still trying to find people willing to take pictures of us at our first meeting; I want to ask my roommate if I can borrow her digi for a bit, but I'm not sure what she'll say. =/ I'm really hoping a friend will be able to get a few pictures of our small collaring ceremony (I'm getting my training collar this week, hopefully!), but if not I'm sure we can take pictures afterwards.

It's really weird, sitting here and knowing that J is about to become a 'real person' to me. There was discussion early in the evening of my angry mother rampaging a few hundred miles from the house to get me and drag me home when she heard he was going to be meeting me in person, but it seems that she's less suspicious of me being slutty (now) and more concerned that I met him online. Oh well. We're smart; we'll always be in a crowd of my friends, and I plan on giving some of them a safe word-- not that I'll need it, but just so I can say I'm being safer than I really am.

I suppose my biggest fear, aside from us just 'not working out' in person, is that J won't like the way I look or smell in person. =/ Probably irrational, but I'm paranoid right now. I'm sure things will go fine, but I'm still pretty unnerved right now. Of course, the fact that it's been an utterly long 24 hours isn't helping; probably after a good night's sleep I'll be fine.

Can't wait to meet you, J. =) Drive safely tomorrow, and get good rest tonight.

-R

posted by rjjr06 @ 10:54 PM Comments: 0