Sleeplessness

RJ: My body is exhausted, but part of me is too excited to sleep. And I'm not talking about my brain. All my second 'brain' can think of is making him happy, pleasing him physically while he pushes my head down onto his lap and pulls my hair a bit and says, "good girl". I know what he really wants from me right now is obedience and cooperation, and I"m trying really hard, but things are so... crazy right now.

I thought I would lose all my attraction for him, and at first I was really shy. But once we were sitting in the lobby of my dorm, watching something vanilla enough on his laptop, and I started snuggling against his arms... I think that's when the pheremones and the reality of the situation kickced in. I did it timidly at first; I almost wasn't thinking about what I was doing. But then we got more and more attracted to each other.

J was right in saying that all the emotions tend to come back... I was surprised by how strongly they returned. Suddenly he was J again, my J, and it was like we'd been doing it all our lives. Now to get some sleep before I lose control tomorrow and unzip his pants in a semi-vanilla setting... yikes.

posted by rjjr06 @ 2:34 AM Comments: 0